*Mirage*
by Christina Rossetti

The hope I dreamed of was a dream,
Was but a dream; and now I wake,
Exceeding comfortless, and worn, and old,
For a dream's sake.

I hang my harp upon a tree,
A weeping willow in a lake;
I hang my silenced harp there, wrung and snapt,
For a dream's sake.

Lie still, lie still, my breaking heart;
My silent heart, lie still and break:
Life, and the world, and mine own self, are changed,
For a dream's sake.

love illusion: god's latest joke...

"I Started A Joke" (a song by Faith No More)

I started a joke,
which started the whole world crying...
Oh, but I didn't see? That the joke was on... me?
...oh no...
And I started to cry,
which started the whole world laughing...
Oh, if I'd only seen,
that the joke... was on me?!

And I looked at the skies,
running my hands over my eyes...
And I... fell out of bed,
cursing my head... for things that I've said?

'Till I finally died,
which started the whole world living...
Oh, if I'd only seen... that the joke was on me!

And I... looked at the skies, running my hands... over my eyes...
And I... fell out of bed, cursing my head... for things that I've said...

'Till I finally died,
which started the whole world living!?
Oh, if I'd only seen... that the joke... was on me...
That the joke was on.... me...
... on me.

Looking to fall for love...

Laurie Anderson's "Walking & Falling" lyrics:

I wanted you... and I was looking for you...
but I couldn't find you?
I wanted you... and I was looking for you all day,
but I couldn't find you?

I couldn't find you...

You're walking... and you don't always realize it, but you're always falling...
With each step, you fall forward slightly... and then catch yourself, from falling...
Over and over, you're falling... and then catching yourself... from falling.

And this is how, you can be walking... and falling... at the same time.

...so resolve your love... I'll be lost when you are gone...

Title: "Resolve"
Lyrics by: Beth Gibbons
Album: "Out Of Season"

Time rolls... as days go by...
And now I've figured, that I ain't gonna last?
Summer skies, are leaving me behind...

So resolve your loving... I've said it all...
And I'll be lost... when you're gone?
Blind me from this! ... blind me!

Time's told... as days go by...
I still ponder this old question... why?
But now I know,
There's no time to decide!

So resolve your love... saying all!
I'll be lost... when you're gone...
Blind me from keep... blind me!

And daylight knows,
How my eyes have tired...
Like the circles, life evermore will bear!

So resolve your loving... say it all...
I'll be lost when you're gone...
Blind me from peace... blind me...

*Endeavor!*

A song By FIONA APPLE... for u:)

"I lie in an early bed... thinking late thoughts...
Waiting for the black to replace... my blue?
I do not struggle in your web, 'cause it was my aim... to get caught!
But daddy longlegs, I feel that I'm finally growing weary... waiting to be consumed by... you!

Give me the first taste!
Let it begin... heaven cannot wait forever?
Darling just start the chase... I'll let you win, but you must make the endeavor...

Oh, your love gives me a heart... contusion?
Adagio breezes fill... my skin with sudden red!
Your hungry flirt... borders intrusion?!
And I'm building memories... on things... we have not said?

Full is not heavy, as empty not nearly... my love?
Not nearly my love... not nearly!?

Give me the first taste!
Let it begin... heaven cannot wait forever...
Darling, just start the chase!
I'll let you win... but you must make the endeavor...

The first taste... let it begin!
Heaven cannot wait forever... darling pls start this chase!
I'll let you win!... but you must make the endeavor!"

("The First Taste" lyrics)

"What" will ever be... "good enough" for u?

*Good Enough*
(Live Lyrics, by Sarah MacLachlan)

Hey... your glass is empty,
It's a hell of a long way home...
Why don't you let me take you?
It's no good to go alone...
I never would have opened up, but you seemed so real to me?
And after all the bullshit I've heard, it's refreshing not to see...
That I don't have to pretend, she doesn't expect it from me...

So...
Don't tell me... I haven't been good to you?
Don't tell me... I have never been there for you...?!
Don't tell me... Why... nothing is good enough?

Hey little girl... would you like some candy?
Your momma said that it's ok...
The door is open... come on outside!
No... I can't come out today...?

It's not the wind, that cracked your shoulder... and threw you to the ground!
Who's there, to make you so... afraid?
You're shaken to the bone... and I don't understand?
Coz... You deserve so much more than this!?

So...
Don't tell me... why he hasn't been good to you?
Don't tell me... why he has never been there for you...?!
Don't tell me... Why... nothing is good enough?
Coz... You deserve much more than this...

"um carinho às vezes"

"Às vezes no silêncio da noite...
Eu fico imaginando nós dois?
Eu fico ali sonhando acordado, juntando... o antes, o agora e o depois?

Porque você me deixa tão solto?
Porquê você não cola em mim?
'tou me sentindo muito sozinho!
Não sou, nem quero ser o seu dono...
É que um carinho às vezes... cai bem!

Eu tenho meus segredos e planos... secretos?
Só abro p'ra você... e mais ninguém...

Porquê você me esquece e some?
E se eu me interessar por alguém?
E se ela, de repente... me ganha?

Quando a gente gosta, é claro que a gente cuida!
Fala que me ama... só que é da boca p'ra fora?
Ou você me engana, ou não está madura... onde está você agora?"

[lyrics by Caetano Veloso]

"ALL" (Lyrics by K's Choice)

Is there anything you want from me?
My arms, my life, my energy...
I don't know how far I can go?
Everything says no,
But you know how it goes, when you're used to your side of the bed...

I know you don't belong in this room,
But you're here now so... what can I do?

All that I am is...
All I was taught to be,
All that you are is...
A wall between myself... and me?

Have you ever really looked at me?
Or thought about me secretly?
Do I make you wonder at all... about the speed of light?
Outside our little world we might... not feel so alone...
And...

I know you don't belong in this room,
But you're here now... So what can I do?

All that I am is...
All I was taught to be,
All that you are is...
A wall between myself and... me...

All that I am is...
All I was taught to be,
All that you are is...
A wall between myself and... me.

What if your dreams dont come back to you?

Carnival
(Lyrics by Tori Amos)

"I sing to the sun in the sky,
I sing to the sun raised high!

Carnival dancer, magical time of youth!
And as the day draws nigh, dreams fill my heart...
I'll sing while he raises guitar!
I'll sing as the night wakes the dawn...
Will love come my way, on this magical day?
And will hope stay in my heart?

Carnival dancer, magical time of youth...
And as the day draws nigh, dreams fill my heart...
And sing while he raises guitar...
I'll sing my dream from afar!
Will love come my way... on this magical day?
And will hope stay in my heart?

Will true love... come my way on this magical day?
Overlook, oh my love!
In my... heart... Stay! (oh, dear)
Stay... (oh, dear) Stay... In my... You... You...(stay again)...

The way you're walking... and walk! The way you can...
The way you're telling me... you're not a danger?
This man, I said again... I say again!
I'm not too kind [to the] moon...
Telling me, well... I watch you!
Im kin to you... You..."

The greatest thing we will ever learn...

There was a boy, a very small enchated boy...
They say he wandered very far, very far... over land and sea...
A little shy and sad of eye, but very wise was he...

And then one day, one magic day he came my way...
And as we spoke of many things, fools and kings, this he said to me:
"The greatest thing, you'll ever learn... is just to love... and be loved... in return."

(Lisa Ekdahl / Album: "Heaven Earth & Beyond" / "Nature Boy" lyrics)

Just for one day...

... experience that moment... just for one day... dont feel lonely, just for that time... together, just for one sound... one line... one heart... just for one magic song in time...

Like David Bowie's song...
"heroes"

I... I will be king
And you... You will be queen
Though nothing will drive them away
We can beat them... just for one day
We can be Heroes... just for one day

And you... you can be mean
And I... I'll drink all the time
'Cause we're lovers... and that is a fact
Yes we're lovers... and that is that

Though nothing... will keep us together
We could steal time... just for one day
We can be Heroes... for ever and ever
What d'you say?

I... I wish you could swim
Like the dolphins... like dolphins can swim
Though nothing... will keep us together
We can beat them... for ever and ever
Oh we can be Heroes... just for one day

I... I will be king
And you... you will be queen
Though nothing... will drive them away
We can be Heroes... just for one day
We can be us... just for one day

I... I can remember... standing by the wall
And the guns shot above our heads
And we kissed... as though nothing could fall
And the shame was on the other side
Oh we can beat them... for ever and ever
Then we can be Heroes... just for one day

We can be Heroes... we can be Heroes
We can be Heroes... just for one day
We can be Heroes...
We're nothing... and nothing will help us
Maybe we're lying?
Then you better not stay...
But we could be safer... just for one day.

Peaceful death...

"Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace."
— Sylvia Plath

Fear!

(Live lyrics from Sarah McLachlan)

"Morning smiles... like the face of a newborn child,
innocent, unknowing...
Winter's end... promises of a long lost friend...
Speaks to me of comfort, but I fear... I have nothing to give?
And I have so much to lose... here in this lonely place...

Tangled up in our embrace... there's nothing I'd like better... than to fall!
But I fear! ... I have nothing to give...

Wind in time... rapes the flower trembling on the vine...
And nothing yields to shelter it... from above?
They say temptation will destroy our love!?
The never ending hunger...

But I fear... I have nothing to give!? and we have so much to lose... here... in this lonely place?! ... tangled up in our embrace, there's nothing I'd like better than... to fall!

But I fear! I have nothing to give? ... but have so much to lose... I have nothing to give... and both have so much to lose... in our love embrace..."

What is it about me?

"You moved like honey... in my dream last night
Yeah, some old fires were burning...
You came near to me... and you endeared to me,
But you couldn't quite discern me?

Does that scare you ? I'll let you run away...
But your heart... will not oblige you!
You'll remember me... like a melody...
Yeah, I'll haunt the world inside you...

And my big secret... is gonna win you over!
Slow like honey... and heavy with mood...

I'll let you see me... while covet your regard...
I'll invade your demeanor!
And you'll yield to me... like a scent in the breeze...
And you'll wonder... what it is about me?

It's my big secret! ... keeping you coming...
Slow like honey... heavy with mood...

Though dreams can be deceiving,
Like faces are to hearts... they serve for sweet relieving,
When fantasy and reality... lie too far apart...

So... I'll stretch myself across... like a bridge... And I'll pull you... into the edge!

And stand there waiting... trying to attain the end... to satisfy the story!
Shall I release you? Must I release you? As I rise... to meet my glory?

But my big secret's... gonna hover over your life!
Gonna keep you reaching! When I'm gone... like yesterday!
When I'm high... like heaven...
When I'm strong! ... like music... 'cause...
I'm slow like honey... and heavy with mood!"

"Slow Like Honey" (Lyrics)
Artist: Fiona Apple
Album: Tidal

The silence of LOVE... by Oscar Wile.

As oftentimes the too resplendent sun,
hurries the pallid and reluctant moon,
back to her sombre cave... ere she hath won,
a single ballad from the nightindale,
so doth thy beauty... make my lips to fail,
and all my sweetest singing out of tune.

And as dawn across the level mead,
on wings impetous... some wind will come,
And with its too harsh kisses... break the reed,
wich was its only intrument of song,
so my too stormy passions... work me wrong,
and for excess of love... my love is dumb.

But surely unto thee... mine eyes did show,
why i am silent... and my lute unstrung;
else it were better... we should part... and go,
thou to some lips of sweeter melody,
and i to nurse the barren memory,
of unkissed kisses... and songs never sung.

Rilke notes on a... first love.

Rome, May 14th, 1904
(by Rainer Maria Rilke)

To love is good too: love being difficult...
For one human being to love another: that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks, the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.

For this reason young people, who are beginners in everything, cannot yet know love: they have to learn it!
With their whole being, with all their forces, gathered close about their lonely, timid, upward-beating heart, they must learn to love...

But learning-time, is always a long secluded time, and so loving, for a long while ahead and far on into life, is--solitude, intensified and deepened loneness, for him who loves...

Love is at first, not anything that means merging, giving over, and uniting with another (for what would a union be of something unclarified and unfinished, still subordinate--?), it is a high inducement to the individual to ripen, to become something in himself for another's sake... it is a great exacting claim upon him, something that chooses him out... and calls him to vast things...

"As condicionantes do AMOR"

"(...) Não acredito em relações perfeitas. Prefiro pensar que serei feliz, enquanto (eu) conseguir amar incondicionalmente..."
(by M. Rebelo Pinto)

Meaning... sempre q o amor se tornar numa "dependencia", numa condição "necessaria" p outra coisa qq... ese amor morreu ali mesmo. Amar, p mim é dar apenas... "porque sim"... sem obrigações, sem desvaneios... sem amuos? dá-se aquilo q se da, porque se da por amor... por gosto, p fazer sorrir @ outr@... sempre q amar for condionar a "vontade de ser"... sempre q se o fizer, se faz por se sentir um certo "dever de"... então já não é mais nada.

Amar, é deixar o coração abir... sem condicionantes nem pressupostos... amamos porque nos é involuntario... porque não faz sentido fazer-se infeliz quem se ama, nem ser infeliz nesse amor!

Dar tudo q sair de graça... porque só dando de coração... sem querer mais nada... se tem o amor de volta, envolta em sereno... o amor verdadeiro... aquele que é oferecido... a tal "graça divinia"!

E é nesta reciprocidade do alinhamento emocional... no mutualismo dos corpos... q a junção das almas se faz, em hegemonia com vida... num suspiro certeiro... entre o arrepio das coisas... naquele momento perfeito, q não trocariamos por nenhum outro... onde os olhos se encaram, as almas se olham... e o espirito... sorri.

"A senhora da água..."

O elemento àgua... as emoçoes, a intuição... e as palavras de Maria Bethania: "Acredito em todas as FORMAS DE AMOR, *desamar* é negar "deus"..."...

Meaning... o amor é fluido, a sexualidade a vida... não acredito em fronteiras, barreiras dogmas... sinto na àgua, na musica, as vibraçoes dos outros e deixo-me ir... sem julgamentos, nem arrependimentos...

E viver a vida, é para mim viver o amor pla vida, plas criações "de deus" (ou deusa?), apaixonadamente em cada dia... seja a paixão por uma ideia, uma mulher, um homem... por um sonho, um projecto, um trabalho, ou até um animal de estimação...? aquilo q nos fizer vibrar, seguir na vida... respirar?

A VIDA para mim é AMAR NA VIDA... e a "deusa criadora" da vida, a terra mae q nos alimenta... é sem duvida isso mesmo... a nossa maior prova de "amor universal"! :)

So... *Ms. Belette*, Im sorry if Ive disturbed u somehow... i thought u felt life, love, just like me... "fluid"... free!

My apologies... maybe Im the main *naive* in all of this...? maybe I am... but I sure cant seem to live life otherwise... UTOPIA is MY DRIVE... and I'll never give that up... ever!

*Peace in the struggle...*

...what am i to do with u? should i be a... "Companion to our demons
they will dance, and we will play..."? as Sarah McL. might be singging somewhere...

...or should i just... "look in or out... upstream, or down without a thought?" u tell me?!

And here's the all puzzle, for u to figure this one out?? coz... I really have NO IDEA where YOU are... "at"?! 8/
*Fumbling Towards Ecstasy* (Lyrics by Sarah McLachlan)

" All the fear has left me now... I'm not frightened anymore!?
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh,
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath...

... and if I shed a tear, I won't cage it! I won't fear love!
... and if I feel a rage, I won't deny it! I won't fear love!

Companion to our demons... they will dance, and we will play...
With chairs, candles, and cloth... making darkness... in the day!
It will be easy... to look in or out... upstream or down... without a thought...

... and if I shed a tear, I won't cage it... I won't fear... love!
... and if I feel a rage, I won't deny it... I won't fear... love...

Peace in the struggle... to find peace!?
Comfort... on the way... to comfort!

... and if I shed a tear, I won't cage it... coz I won't fear... love! ... and if I feel a rage... I won't deny it? I won't fear... (your) love... I won't fear (my) love... I won't fear (our) love..."

Can u pls tell me... where do you stand -right now- in all this "struggle"??!!!

For MS. belette! :)

Here's a song for u... thanking ur company last night... hence u finally said "yes" to knowing me better!;)
And so... upon a wish & a star... Ive played this morning this song in ur honour...

A wish... keep fighting!
(lyrics by Drive & Lucia Moniz)

(Drive)
Please DONT BE SCARED, I won't dissapoint you!
Just look at my face... I shouldn't love you anyway...
I WANNA TRY IT... I think I'M ALREADY? YES... I'm already trying...

Because... I believe it! Yes... I believe it:) And I am trying...

(Lúcia Moniz)
Please keep fighting... Keep fighting...
Together we can build... something beautiful!
Please keep fighting... together we'll build... love:)

(Drive)
I can't live without you... but... could I ever learn how to live... with... you?

(Drive & Lúcia Moniz)
'Cause I believe it! Yes... I believe it :) and I am trying...

Please keep fighting... keep fighting... together we can... build something beautiful!
Please keep fighting... together we'll build love...

Please keep fighting... Keep fighting!
Together we can build... something beautiful:)
Please keep fighting... keep fighting...

(Drive e Lúcia Moniz)
I WONT GIVE UP ON YOU... please keep fighting!
Together we'll build love... DONT YOU GIVE UP NOW...ON ME!... coz, I won't give up on you..."

THANX ONCE MORE FOR... trying last night:)

«Love is a Parallax» (by Sylvia Plath)

"Perspective betrays with its dichotomy: train tracks always meet, not here, but only in the impossible mind's eye; horizons beat a retreat, as we embark on sophist seas, to overtake that mark, where wave pretends to drench real sky...

'Well then, if we agree, it is not odd that: one man's devil is another's god, or that the solar spectrum, is a multitude of shaded grays; suspense on the quicksands of ambivalence... is our life's whole nemesis.

So we could rave on, darling, you and I, until the stars tick out a lullaby... about each cosmic pro and con... nothing changes, for all the blazing of our drastic jargon, but clock hands, that move implacably from twelve... to one.

We raise our arguments, like sitting ducks, to knock them down with logic or with luck... and contradict ourselves for fun... the waitress holds our coats... and we put on the raw wind like a scarf: love is a faun, who insists his playmates run...

Now you, my intellectual leprechaun, would have me swallow the entire sun... like an enormous oyster, down the ocean in one gulp: you say a mark of comet... hara-kiri through the dark, should inflame the sleeping town!

So kiss: the drunks upon the curb... and dames in dubious doorways, forget their monday names... caper with candles in their heads...
the leaves applaud, and santa claus flies in scattering candy, from a zeppelin... playing his prodigal charades?

The moon leans down... to took the tilting fish, in the rare river... we wink and laugh... we lavish blessings... right and left and cry hello, and then hello again in deaf! churchyard ears, until the starlit stiff graves... all carol in reply...

Now kiss again: till our strict father leans to call... for curtain on our thousand scenes!?... brazen actors mock at him, multiply pink harlequins... and sing in gay ventriloquy, from wing to wing... while footlights flare and houselights dim...

Tell now, we taunq where black or white begins... and separate the flutes from violins: the algebra of absolutes, explodes in a kaleidoscope of shapes that jar!... while each polemic jackanapes, joins his enemies' recruits...

The paradox is that 'the play's the thing': though prima donna pouts and critic stings, there burns throughout the line of words,
the cultivated act... a fierce brief fusion, which dreamers call... real! and realists... illusion: an insight like the flight of birds!

Arrows that lacerate the sky, while knowing the secret of their ecstasy's... in going some day, moving... one will drop, and dropping... die, to trace a wound that heals... only to reopen as flesh congeals: cycling phoenix never stops!?

So... we shall walk barefoot... on walnut shells of withered worlds, and stamp out puny hells... and heavens... till the spirits squeak surrender: to build our bed as high, as jack's bold beanstalk... lie and love... till sharp scythe, hacks away our rationed days and weeks...

Then jet the blue tent topple, stars rain down... and god or void? appalls us... till we drown in our own tears: today we start to pay the piper, with each breath... yet love knows not of death... nor calculus above... it knows the simple sum of: heart plus heart."

Moon me! Soon sweetheart, soon...

...foto da lua cheia a "nascer na noite", q tirei um dia a caminho de casa... saudades de ti! meu sossego além tejo...

"Sonnet from the Portuguese XIV"

(by Elizabeth Barrett Browning: "Sonnets from the Portuguese XIV")

If thou must love me, let it be for nought, except for love's sake only.

Do not say- "I love her for her smile... her look... her way of speaking gently, for a trick of thought, that falls in well with mine, and certes brought... a sense of pleasant ease on such a day"

For these things in themselves, Beloved, may be changed, or change for thee... and love, so wrought, may be unwrought so.

Neither love me for... thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry, since one might forget to weep, who bore thy comfort long... and lose thy love thereby!

But love me for love's sake!... that evermore, thou may'st love on... through love's eternity.

*sinastry*

SINASTRY is the astrological art of matching two individual horoscopes (natal charts), to measure the compability (or otherwise!?) of the people involved... coz love and romance affects each Zodiac sign differently.

By trying to check the "astral map match", one should be able to gain some idea of what to expect? ... and be "prepared" to know how to react!;)

...so... there will be fewer *unwilling surprises* from now on... :)

...still scenting out ur wolf's trace...

"(...)Brinca quando podes, caça quando deves... descansa entretanto... Partilha os teus afectos, exprime os teus sentimentos... deixa a tua marca!"

[Retirado do livro " A Sabedoria dos Lobos" de Twyman L. Towery]

Im just a *tease*, u know?

... toda eu sou muito mais "fogo-fatuo" do q "realidade"...

Ao contrario das aparencias... eu levo muito mais tempo a "ligar-me" às pessoas, do q à primeira vista possa parecer? Faz td parte do me "teatro de vida"... o ser-se "geisha" em casa propria... boba da corte? implica todo um floreado "emocional", q depois dificilmente se consegue "despir" na rua... aos outros... enfim... tb eu tenho "Venus em Virgem"!lol ;)

Que giro... estou a escrever "sentimentos" em portugues... não é costume! mmm... I wonder?

Moral da historia... hj blogo aqui td isto, pq já percebi q as palavras p ti têm imenso poder (p mim "as palavras leva-as o vento"... eu sou uma pessoa "reactiva"!!)... por isso é q és sempre tão "sintetica" a expressar-te por escrito, não é? medo de te comprometeres c palavras, q mais tarde não podes "revogar", por estarem "impressas"!?

A mim... as palavras pouco me dize, pq eu sigo o coração... e ele contradiz a razão qs sempre!lol o coração não tem metas, planos, ou destinos... o coração SENTE! e por td isso, eu escrevo sem medo de me desdizer... pq sei q embora me possa vir a "contradizer", nunca estarei a "desdizer" emoções... já q elas encerram em si uma mutabilidade sempre VERDADEIRA!

E enquanto em sentir, q vivi a vida fiel ao q o coraçãoo me diz, nunca me heide arrepender de nada q disse, q fiz, q senti... pq levo a vida com PAIXÃO! viver sem estar apaixonada, é viver sem mais nada... é esperar a morte da razão.

*AR*

...this will be "tuesday me"! :);)

...atenção, q a hora q aqui "aparece" no blog, não é a "hora real"... neste momento devem ser qs 10 da manhã...:)

Here's a lil song from me... to u... to tuesday "to be"!:)
And its just "fun", dont take the lyrics so seriously, ok? im just a DANCER and i take emotions in waves, only time will tell if anything "real" will come out of...mmm... *tuesday*;)

*Buttons*
(Band:Pussycat Dolls)

"I'm telling you! loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying... what you going do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing? (Uh)

I'm telling you! loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying... what you going do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing!? (Uh)

Typical! Hardly the type I fall for...
I like when the physical, don't leave me asking for more!
I'm a sexy mama (mama!)!!!
Who knows, just how to get what I wanna! (wanna!)
What I want to do is... spring this on you! (on you!)
Back up all... of the things that I told you! (told you!)

You've been saying... all the right things all night long...
But I can't seem to get you... over here! to help take this off?!
Baby, can't you see? (see!) How these clothes are fitting on me... (me!)
And the heat coming from this beat... (beat!)
I'm about to blow! I don't think you know?!

I'm telling you to... loosen up my buttons baby! (Uh huh)
(...)

You say you're a big boy... But I can't agree?!
'Cause... the love you said you had... ain't been put on me?!
I wonder... (wonder!) If I'm just too much for you? I Wonder? (wonder!)

If my kiss don't make you just.... wonder? (wonder!)
What I got next for you... What you want to do?! (do?)
Take a chance... to recognize that... this could be yours!
I can see, just like most (guys)... that your game don't please...? I wonder!? (wonder!)

Baby, can't you see? (see!)
How these clothes are... fitting on me! (me!)
And the heat, coming from this beat... (beat!)
I'm about to blow!? ... I don't think you know?
(...)"


... é da lua cheia, sabes' ainda por cima "luas cheias de escorpião"....lol... são terriveis p mim?! 8/

Tenho q ir ter umas aulinhas de dança hoje e por estes dias... a ver se desbasto o corpo!!! isto é...mmm.... muito energia p uma pessoa "só"!? por isso é q os "bailarin@s" castigam o corpo... a ver se conseguem sossegar o espirito... *sigh*

See ya then... sexy mama!:);)
Em vez de ir p a fcul esta semana, já falei c a prof e vou ver se consigo ter umas aulas de dança... já há algum tempo q não danço... and im about to blow!?;)

And no need to worry about tuesday... ill be behaving beautifully... "in public"! :);)

PS: Bem sei q à partida, pode parecer um contrasenso, ao mesmo tempo q digo q "estou c cansaço fisico p trabalhar/massagens", a seguir digo q tenho q ir "dançar p desgastar.me" e sossegar o espirito?! mas são "cansaços diferentes" *sigh*... eu qdo danço, renovo-me por dentro! e qdo acordo no dia seguinte tenho uma nova energia (animo?) p lidar c a sociedade e o seu "pesar" em mim... bjs*

...there's no need to *fear* me... my dear...

... my heart is in the right place, u know? coz i mean to be there, to "catch ur fall"... so... why wont u go & listen to that cd I left u before... here's a lil *hint* 4 u this morning!:)

(Sarah McLachlan's *Fear* lyrics -live-)

"Morning smiles, like the face... of a newborn child!:)
Innocent unknowing...
Winter's end... promises... of a long lost friend, speaks to me of comfort... but I fear...

I have nothing to give? and I have so much to lose!? ... here in this lonely place... tangled up in our embrace...
There's nothing I'd like better than... to fall!
But I fear... I have nothing to give...?

Wind in time... rapes the flower trembling on the vine...
Nothing yields to shelter it!
From above... they say temptation will destroy our love?!
The never ending hunger...!?

But I fear... I have nothing to give... but I have so much to lose here... in this lonely place!?... tangled up... in our embrace... There's nothing I'd like better than... to fall...
But I fear...

I have nothing to give... and I have so much to lose...
I have nothing to give... and there's so much to lose...? ... we have so much to lose... right here... right now!"

... still i say! there's no need to fear *this*, coz... i will catch ur fall! u see... im a *dancer* after all!;)

[MIRROR*BALL]

...and here r some more lyrics, from that cd i gave u... (this one i took from her live album: *mirrorball*)

"I have a smile, stretched from ear to ear... to see you walking down the road...

We meet at the lights, I stare for a while... and the
The world around disappears!

Just you and me... on this island of hope... a breath between us... could be miles?

Let me surround you... my sea to your shore!
Let me be... the calm you seek?
Oh... and every time I'm close to you... there's too much I can't say?! (coz u keep pushing my eyes away!?;)) ... and you just walk away...

And I forgot... to tell you... I love you?
And the night is too long... and it's cold here... without you!
And I grieve in my condition... for I cannot find the strength to say... I need you so...

Oh... and every time I'm close to you... there's too much I can't say...?! coz u... you just walk away!"

...why do u keep walking away?????

Hold on!

Artist : Sarah Mclachlan
Song : Hold On

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell
Hold on
Hold on to yourself
you know that only time will tell
What is it in me that refuses to believe
this isn't easier than the real thing
My love
you know that you're my best friend
you know I'd do anything for you
my love
let nothing come between us
my love for you is strong and true
Am I in heaven here or am I...
at the crossroads I am standing
So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
see another day and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face
Oh god if you're out there won't you hear me
I know that we've never talked before
oh god the man I love is leaving
won't you take him when he comes to your door
Am I in heaven here or am I in hell
at the crossroads I am standing
So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
see another day and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face...
Hold on
hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell