~halo~

HALO:
(lyrics by Evan Kidd Bogart & Ryan Benjamin Tedder)

Remember those walls I built? Well, baby they're tumbling down...
And they didn't even put up a fight, they didn't even make up a sound...

I found a way to let you in, but I never really had a doubt?
Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now!

It's like I've been awakened, every rule I had you breakin'!
It's the risk that I'm takin', and I ain't never gonna shut you out...

Everywhere I'm looking now, I'm surrounded by your embrace...
Baby I can see your halo, you know you're my saving grace!

You're everything I need and more, it's written all over your face...
Baby I can feel your halo, pray it won't fade away?

I can feel your halo.. halo... halo... I can see your... halo... halo... halo... I can feel your halo... halo... halo... I can see your halo... halo... halo!

Hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night!?
You're the only one I want, think I'm addicted to your light...?

I swore I'd never fall again, but this don't even feel like falling...
Gravity can't forget to pull me... back to the ground again!

Feels like I've been awakened!? ... every rule I had you breakin'!
The risk that I'm takin'now, I'm never gonna shut you out.

(...)
...and that's an astral promise!:);)

sigh*million dollor hearts*sigh

Ive seen this movie this morning... long time ago it made perfect sense... back in 2001? These days... it is all coming back to me again?! 8(

I'll leave u here, some of the quotes I like...

"Wow. After I jumped it occurred to me life is perfect, life is the best, full of magic, beauty, opportunity... and television... and surprises, lots of surprises, yeah. And then there's the best stuff of course, better than anything anyone ever made up, 'cause it's real!?..."

"The heart is a sleeping beauty... and love the only kiss it can't resist. Even if its eyes lay open wide, there is a heart that sleeps inside... And it's to there, you must be hastening!? For all hearts dream... they dream only of... awakening!"

*sigh*

La Paix est un Pas!

(by Teresa Vergani)

"Laisse la vie respirer, laisse la vie marcher
Tu n'as rien à faire,
laisse...

C'est la vie qui respire, c'est la vie qui marche
Mets-toi dans son souffle, mets-toi dans son pas!

la vie est un souffle, la vie est un pas
Tu es ce souffle, tu es ce pas...

Il n'y a que le souffle, il n'y a que le pas...

Bonheur dans le souffle, paix dans le pas
Le bonheur est souffle... et la PAIX est un pas..."

this mess we're in... ?

Western Eyes
(lyrics by Portishead)

Forgotten throes, of another's life, the heart of love is their only light...
Faithless greeds consolidating, holding down sweet charity
With western eyes and serpents breath, we lay our own conscience to rest...
But I'm aching, at the view, yes I'm breaking, at the scenes, just like you?!

(I feel so cold, only hookers and gin... these days... this mess we're in!)
They have values, of a certain taste...
The innocent, they can hardly wait to crucify, invalidating and turning to dishonesty
With western eyes and serpents breath, they lay their own conscience to rest...

But then they lie, and then they dare to be, hidden heros candidly...?
So I'm aching at the view, yes I'm breaking at the scenes just like you...?
(I feel so cold... on hookers and gin... this mess we're in!?)

*organic*

peel an orange
peels me porgy... i feel u?
panic!

so no lovers... l'amour au fur et à mesure!?
une fois, en fou! folle?

say no more, kiss my core
say no blue, see me through!

Just this war... mine alone.
May no more... peel me wrong?
...again... organic?

Feel my arms, im un... harmed?
by the way... build my hangar...
uve ruined me... in... and... out?... in...
panic!

i feel u... i do... organic.

*Amar a Vida* (I e II)

*Amar em Vida* (aka "Amar a Vida I")

Se voltar à primeira linha condutora, aquela que me levou até ti... é viver sozinha, sem alma... antes assim.
O meu coração pertence-te... e o corpo reage à vida... por obrigação... apenas.
Sem alma, sem aconchego... que me chegue ao desespero sequer... sigo a primeira linha e espero.
Espero-te sempre, do outro lado da corrente... desespero o suspiro: ocorrer-te amar-me de volta à vida... um dia.

1 Março 2009


*Amar sem vida* (aka "Amar a Vida II")

Sempre que ela se distrai na vida... ama de coração, outro que não o meu, ama fora da minha memória... sempre que se ausenta da minha linha, eu morro noutra parte do todo... e vai ser sempre assim.
De cada vez que me sinto morrer, me recolho no que me resta, foi por tê-la a amar-me ao lado... e só volto à vida, numa sua lembrança perdida...
Morro sempre mais tempo, que definha no pouco, que no teu amor... retorno.

17/18 Março 2009

What if Eve wanted to leave?

Ive always been fashinated for this subject, did some 'research' and started wondering about 'other reasons', that might have lead Eve to eat and tempt Adam in eating the apple...

What if what she really wanted, was to leave Adam, and all that 'paradise/happy strai8 marriage' thing?:)

Did u know that the first woman in heaven was Lilith? Did u know that she refused to obey Adam, by saying that she was also created before 'dust', same way he was... therefore, their rights in paradise were equal?

Some say she was the first feminist ever!;)
Later on...unhappy with his given hife, Adam complained about it to God, and he 'offer' him 'Eve' instead. This time, God decided to craete his new wife, out of his own 'rib', so that she would be in a 'downlow level' and obey him, with no questions ask.

Poor Lilith was thrown out of heaven into the desert. Some say she re-entered heaven, disguised as a serpent, to 'tempt Eve' back...

Is the serpent really Lilth in disguise?
What if the serpent did seduce Eve after all?
What if all she wanted was a lil woman's company in the desert?;)

Or maybe... that serpent is really not to be trustful, and she also seduced Lilith before into the desert!?
Will the serpent be 'back' for more? Is she hidding a 'harem of Liliths & Eves', somewhere in the desert?

I once wrote a 'poem' 'playing' with these ideas of mine... This isnt meant to 'provoke' any christian ladies in here, i would like u to see it, as just another little side-story about 'Adam & Eve'.

And so i once wrote... EVE's REVENGE!

'May I have ur attention please!
This post,
isnt meant to be a poem,
but my sign of protest!

What just happened in paradise was grotesque!
The serpent betrayed me
God mistreated me
And Adam... poor adam... was just another 'jerk' lost in paradise...

But what about sweet Lilith?
Does anyone in here, knows what has become of fair Lilith?

I heard she was sent to the desert, for desobeying Adam's commands.

Where did she go?
Do anyone of u fairies know?

Coz...
Im Eve's revenge!
A new born Amazon!
Whose single quest will be:
looking out for lilith strength and put that serpent to rest!'

*Insane*

Insane

in... sane
not so sane
sad in slowly
hot in pain
slowly in failing
hearts in flame
railing sour
sailing pain
taming me
gently failed
the hole in thee
the heating game
so free she came
within in...sane
still in lame
away she fails
sailed in vain
she feels no plain
so sanely says
insane she stays


(the author of this poem is still... 'at large'... 8/)

*Breath in...*

(8/9th Oct. 05)

Deep, depth... breath!
Breath in... and out we go again!
Same old same
Where does she leave the rain?
Deep within?
Breeding in a new Spring?
Depth foresee the dryland between:
always 'me & them'.

Breath in... and out we go again!
That common sense,
sucked me a new vein
Breath in, death out
Can u feel the pretence?

'Good morning',
I murmur among the rest
Will they notice this puppet's gest?
Trying to cut the string,
deluded still into a new begin

No need to say,
keep trying assembling if u may
Meanwhile u fail... stay breathing.

*beneath the dream*

Beneath the peace
Beneath the creep
Relies the priest
Endures the feast

I know she lies
She says she loves
I know she flies
She says she stays

Beneath the piece
My angel came
We dance the switch
Misplaced the flame

I know she sails
She loves her wings
I know she waves
The angel’s flings

Beneath the breath
The tide came in
Beneath the game
The wave gave in

I know she lies
No dragon flies
I know she sways
No princess’s frames

Beneath the wall
The climb was void
Beneath the virtual
The sign was none

I know she lies
No fairy tales
I know she cries
No dream in rails

Still the question remains… why do we ever leave?

*sea serpent*

Im not that strong,
life's wearing my booths,
no words of love, ever been proved...

The sea line is getting thinner,
no one gets me, but waves of you
one was meant for me
twice were lovers' be... serpent thy!

My love even fakes,
like if trees together might brake?

Still, no light will succeed thee... freely,
as my love in yours... lil Eve?

God's been cursed... behind the scenes,
Iove like this, was never meant to live.


15th october 2009

Marquise de Merteuil speaks up!

In one of the most amazing Glenn Close's lines:

"When I came out into society I was 15.

I already knew then that the role I was condemned to, namely to keep quiet and do what I was told, gave me the perfect opportunity to listen and observe.
Not to what people told me, which naturally was of no interest to me, but to whatever it was they were trying to hide.

I practiced detachment. I learn how to look cheerful while under the table I stuck a fork onto the back of my hand. I became a virtuoso of deceit.

I consulted the strictest moralists to learn how to appear, philosophers to find out what to think, and novelists to see what I could get away with, and in the end it all came down to one wonderfully simple principle: win or die."

She just read my soul within this quote!*sigh* sad , but true.

its just "survival" of the soul- i guess- we all try and understand *life*, ppl- things in ppls lives, right?

Looking for a "Tea after wine" love...

tea after wine?

why didnt u stay for tea? after the wine-

why didnt u ask me to dance- behind the mind?

why?

why do i keep asking u*sigh* why?

why? do u have to keep explaining me - stuff-

-ducky duff.

why all these needs, these hiddens signs, all the time?

Im so tired, so said and tired of sighing - why?

...just take me, my hand, my sign, my heart- all mine

- in cycle.

Enough stuff, puff - magic dragoons and such!

Three ships are sailing in, take one- or none.

Why? coz i'll never sigh u, by my side- im done!

*sigh*- am i? - my sweet icicle -

My song for... YOU!

Nouvelle Vague:
"In A Manner Of Speaking (lyrics)"

In a Manner of speaking, I just want to say

That I could never forget the way

You told me everything, by saying nothing...

In a manner of speaking, I don't understand

How love in silence becomes reprimand

But the way that i feel about you, is beyond words...

Oh give me the words, give me the words

That tell me nothing...

Ohohohoh give me the words, give me the words... that tell me everything...

In a manner of speaking, semantics won't do?!

In this life that we live, we only make do...

And the way that we feel, might have to be sacrified...

So... in a manner of speaking, I just want to say that, just like you, I should find a way...

To tell you everything, by saying nothing...

Oh give me the words, give me the words... that tell me nothing?

Ohohohoh give me the words, give me the words...

That tell me everything...

Oh give me the words, give me the words!

That tell me nothing...

Ohohohoh give me the words... give me the words, that tell me everything!

Long time no blogging... long time no NEEDING to blog!? :(

...and so it seems, that so *many waters* have passed since March!? Ive fallen in & out of love... I thought I wouldnt love ever again... u know, the usual heart broken stuff... but then... when least excpected, there was a light, that I didnt notice before?

And she had always been near... i guess like all hidden *stars* she would be shinning on me, whenever it would be least expected, huh?! a recent light, that is becoming each day&night more and more bright!:)

And so... here's a song for u... Ms. Belette, in case u r still wondering if Im being for "real"!;)