"sweet little breads" & "empty still" (two poems)

(this is my 1st luv poem to her...

it's in portuguese... sorry ;))

"sweet little-breads"

"empty still"
(this other one, I posted it 1st at www.shoe.org,

under the nick: willy, on the 30th Oct. 2005 )

empty still
still here, still drunk,
still trying to delude myself from u all,
but inbetween... still here, still real,
still the beast i pretended to release,
still freeze!

was it all meant to be? this sad vision of u & me?
to beat... im free! even speak!?!? is it so?
does anyone here still believes... in this trial of ours?
my empty night, after a while, was nothing but an evening shy, coz...
there will be no fusion! u were never meant to be...
just an illusion to set free!?
i do realise now, i guess it was never new! even equal?
still unreal... as that summer's eve,
when this love was 1st released!

i know, i do so... unwillingly, but...
even still... im for ever done, within this bitter turn?!
u left and ive stayed... unreal... incomplete...

ever me saying... to u...
im a freak!
and i repeat...
im a freak...
and i repeat...
im a freak...

just leave! shift away, like that dead leaf... windy & winning,
unwilling... I treasure u best... my forever regardless quest!

my beloved one,
my inner burn,
my lovely sun...
ever and forever... again i'll be sunday stuned!
coz this sense of lonelyness,
was my most lovely dream... while it burnt...

inbetween... u've gone, all gone...
im moving also... along
never mind me bursting... here & there...
it is all part of our deal?!
to feel the unreal, but never surrending the soul... never meeting our hearts' ordeal?
still... i feel like i'm wasting me... whenever...

"...You make me feel, coz... you make me feel, you make me feel like... a... natural woman!!!..."

why!??? *...sigh...*

sandy